What doesn’t challenge you…
I started crying last night and it continues even now. The stress of everything is finally getting to me.
I have nothing left.
I can’t say any one thing is wrong. I’m just suddenly washed over with despair. I want to stop and sit like a stubborn mule. That’s it. I’m done. Just try to make me do something more. This is the closest I’ve been to early terminating since coming to Sanniquellie.
Thankfully tomorrow is another new day and even though it will be almost exactly like the ones before it’ll be another fresh start. And I’ll be back at school with Festus and George and together we will all climb just a little higher.
What doesn’t challenge you doesn’t change you.
“Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy.” Anne Frank
My heart goes out to you, Bekka…I recently seem to be having days where I just want to throw my hands up and say, “That’s it; I give up on all of you”. Is it sickening that sometimes the only comfort is knowing that things could be worse because it is worse for some people around us? Yeah, that kind of is.
What I wouldn’t give to be able to give you a long hug and a cup of warm tea right now; doesn’t that sound comforting?
I hope you know you are making a difference…the things you have shared and the love you have given will never be forgotten. I wish there was more encouragement I could tell you or send your way. You and the people you care for are in my thoughts and prayers, dear friend. Much love you 🙂
Hang in there my friend. Thoughts and prayers on your behalf.
Hang in there Bekka ❤ you are doing challenging work and deserve the time and space to feel your emotions, let them vent out. Every day brings more opportunities for change.