What we Play is Life
Today was better. I only almost cried once. We had study class at 11:00 and I was exhausted and hungry by the time I left at 3:30. Maima fed me pepper soup for a third day in a row and I did small errands before coming home.
I sat down on the porch to do work for the prison and Yada crawled in my lap, filthy little pig-pen Yada. God bless him, though, that kid loves me and is here with me almost all the time. I’m constantly asking him, “Yada, are those words?” or “Yada, why are you wet?” but he loves to dance and sing so we’re a good pair. I put my work away and we read Dr. Seuss until Grandpa came and asked me to open the office, now officially the dancing room. I was feeling tired and depressed again so I wandered in and out while they screamed and ran back and forth on the porch.
I cut Emmanuel’s pineapple to share with them and was just about the tell them to go home when Grandpa grabbed my hand and very seriously said, “RB, you da big boss police.” He and I proceeded to chase all the other kids and put them in prison (make them sit on the broken chair in the office). There was music and dancing in prison, though, so it wasn’t super realistic but he was trying. The prisoners kept trying to escape so Grandpa started play beating them. Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! “Da na wha da boss man police should do!” I intervened. Everyone squealed and ran into the yard. “RB,” Grandpa said, “Let’s wait in the prison. They will come and we can catch them.” I wasn’t so sure about this but I went along. He was right, as usual.
After we’d detained them for awhile I told Grandpa we should go to court and decide if they were guilty. He wasn’t crazy about this but I let him be the judge and wear my hat so he agreed. I brought each prisoner up one by one. “Nyaquay, is it true you can rogue people’s money?” He grinned and nodded, “Oh yes!” I gasped, “Judge Grandpa, what should we do?” He thought for a moment, “He can go.” Again I gasped, “For why? The man say he’s a rogue!” Grandpa just shook his head and pointed to the door, “The man is crazy. Very crazy.” “So we should let him go?!” I asked. Grandpa looked at me like I was crazy, “I na want him here!” Good point, I guess. Nyaquay was freed, but captured again within minutes. So much for justice and rehabilitation.
This continued at least another hour with Grandpa strutting around the front yard in my too-big hat declaring that various kids be arrested. They screamed and ran alternately from me and to me. Little Yada cemented himself to my leg in a bear hug and wouldn’t let go. “RB da police! RB da police!” they chanted. I wasn’t sure this was the message I wanted to send to the neighborhood, but there was no stopping them. I could see the adults next door watching and laughing which made me happy. I was reminded of my host dad in Kakata and the speech he made in church right before I left. “Leela was always playing with the children. And it made them so happy! I always came home and went inside, but Leela taught me I should spend time with them and it will make us all happy.” Adults don’t play with kids here. They yell and send them to work.
A storm started blowing in and everyone left except Yana and Yada. I lit the fire to warm water and brought the radio outside. Yana was sprawled on her back, batting her soulful eyes at me. Yada grabbed my hand and crawled into my lap. He was so dirty, but as he snuggled into my shoulder I didn’t care. Life is going to be ok… just completely different, more like Kakata.
“What we play is life.”
~ Louis Armstrong
Really? Really…?
Emmanuel just came to the house with a big pineapple. He handed it to me and looked me in the eye for one of the first times. “Ms. RB,” he said, “will you really be with us one more year? You will not go and not come?”
I smiled, “I promise.”
He let out a loud sigh, “Praise God.”
Family First
Today was my first real day back at school. It was hard. Really hard. Attendance was low because of the Easter break and everyone was restless. I expected that. I thought I was ready for that.
But when 12th grade wouldn’t pay attention my fragile shell started cracking. I didn’t yell. I didn’t get mad. I just stopped and looked at them sadly, pointing to the “20 Days to WAEC!” I’d written at the top of the board. When ten minutes later we still weren’t moving I thought about walking out. Not mad. Just sad, tired, and not in the mood.
“My friends,” I said, “I bragged about my students in Monrovia, but right now you are making me very sad. I am here for you but you don’t seem to care. Ms. L is gone,” I continued, my voice cracking and tears building. “You don’t think I want to be with my family too? I am here because you are my family now. I need you to take better care of me.”
Complete silence.
“I can continue?”
They nodded and a few people mumbled, “Surely.” I finished the notes and went on to teach two equally frustrating 11th grade classes. Just keep moving forward, girl, just keep moving forward.
Reasons to Smile

No, I don’t know where Mickey came from. “Nya, what ting der?” He paused and stared at me, “Rat… Meat!” Yep. I’ll take that.
Yesterday Festus stopped me on the road to ask me a physics question. I asked about George and he said George was in Ganta turning in their applications for ZRTTI (Zorzor Rural Teacher Training Institute). I almost hugged him I was so happy.
My boys want to be teachers!
When the world gives you a HUNDRED reasons to CRY, show the world you have a THOUSAND reasons to SMILE.
Juice and Geometry
Suakoko! Suakoko!

One of the 11th grade students took this pic of K and me watching the football game. Yep, that’s his finger in the corner.
A month ago, right before K left, Suakoko drove up from Bong County to play our school in kickball and football. The kids blew off school most of the week preparing the program. Dramas, songs, dances… it was annoying, but cute. They also swore in the new gigantic student government. Congrats kids. Oh, yeah, and we finally won a football game.
You cannot imagine the jubilation.
- One of the 11th grade students took this pic of K and me watching the football game. Yep, that’s his finger in the corner.
- It’s half dance party, half cook off. The girls work hard to feed the visitors.
- Slashing greens for the soup.
- Helena, our tailor’s daughter, cleans fish.
- Our principal’s daughter, Mercy, with her small dog, Lion.
- Yum. Fishy.
- Bubble, bubble, toil and trouble…
- Evelyn stokes the fire.
- This is the only room available anywhere for 12th grade study class. Yep. The same place they cook the food. Yep. That’s a board nailed to the wall. Yep. Just a board.
- Kids who skipped school were forced to bring bricks. Apparently we’re building a science lab? They’re storing them here so Mr. Demy can guard them from his house.
- Some of the 11th grade boys prepare to take their positions in student government. They were forced to become the ‘black tie’ society and raced around town looking for black trousers, suit coats, and ties.
- The African school bus the kids came in.
- Small Grandpa lives by the school. He waited with us for the program.
- Youhn Paul is almost too cool for the program.
- Philip performs the song he wrote for our principal entitled “Thank you, Mr. Demy”
- The 12th graders prepare to give their positions to the newly selected underclassmen. From left are my boys Othello, Humphrey, Jackson, Sam, Martin, Charleston, and Obediah.
- The hoard takes their oath of office.
- Josephine, the new student council president, is as sassy as she looks.
- Romeo, outgoing president, makes a speech.
- Nelson, Jonathan, Emmanuel, and Morris after taking their oath.
- A group of my 12th grade boys watch the football game. Emeka, George, Fredrick, and Romeo are quizzers and spend Sundays with me. Humphrey and Charleston are goofs.
- “Ms. RB, stop! We’re dignified officials!” As soon as we scored a goal they forgot that, however, throwing their jackets in the air and rushing the field screaming.
- Yep, this is what the whole game looked like to me.
When the Shoe Fits
Yesterday was hard. I had two raucous dance parties to scare the loneliness from the house. It worked briefly. Then they ended and the house was as dark and quiet as ever. I’m trying to keep my hands busy so I bought a hook in the market and set about brushing the yard. My student Precious walked over, “You can work! Many of your friends aren’t able, but you are strong!” I heaped the grass clumps next to the porch and she sat down. “I should help you?” she asked. I shook my head, “I need to stay busy.” She and her tiny daughter kept me company until it was time for her kickball game. I was grateful.
A few minutes after she left Grandpa came racing over. When I left for Monrovia he asked me to bring him “choose.” I wasn’t about to buy shoes without knowing if they’d fit, though, so I concocted a plan. I’d take him to the market under the pretense Krista asked me to get him shoes. I walked to his house with him and the ol’ ma was happy to let him go. I sat on the porch while they made him take a bath and put together the best outfit they could find: red swim trunks, an orange and white polo, and Yada’s orange slippers. When he came to the door the other kids all gasped. “You bluffin’!” I smiled. If he could have blushed he would have.
I locked my house and we left. We hadn’t even passed the neighbor’s house when he slipped on a mango pit and hit the ground. He was so embarrassed! He tried to brush the mud off his shorts and walked with his shirt pulled down to try to hide it (until he forgot two minutes later).
That sweet kid acted like he’d hardly been out of the yard in his life, which can’t be entirely true. I know he goes to school and the farm if nothing else. They sent one of the older girls with us (Amelia I think?) and I was a little annoyed but decided it was a small price to pay to spend the afternoon with Grandpa. Have I mentioned he’s my favorite?
Once we got to the market I was grateful for her and was reminded of weekends with Princess and Luke in Kakata. A shoe seller swooped in on us and shoved Grandpa’s feet in a pair of gigantic dress shoes. “He says he likes them. He says you should buy them,” the man barked, shoving the shoes in a plastic and handing them to me. “No he didn’t,” I replied firmly and bent down to Grandpa. “Grandpa, what shoes you wanting? You love these shoes?” He stared at me wide-eyed and overwhelmed. “He has the same shoes at home,” Amelia whispered to me. I asked Grandpa if that was true and he nodded. I handed the shoes back to the man, “Tank you, ma frien’ but we keep checking.” He was mad but let us go without a scene.
It was late and everyone was packing up. Just as I was about to give up and try next week he stopped to look at slippers. I bought him some so the trip wouldn’t be a waste—who knows what would happen if I brought him home empty handed. As we climbed the hill from the market he darted across the street and into a shop. “RB! Let’s check here.”
He and Amelia pawed through a table of tiny shoes while I watched. Two of the Bangladeshi officers stopped and smiled, “These your children?” I nodded and patted Grandpa’s head just as he pulled a miniature Air Jordan from the pile. “Chaaa!” we all laughed, “Put it on!” He was like a little Cinderella… will the shoe fit? He beamed and did a little strut. “Dat your style, Grandpa?” I asked. “Dat it, Rb!” I haggled with the man and still probably overpaid.
I stopped to buy some benne seed and coconut candy then took them to the Green Bar for soft drinks. It was busy but I pulled up chairs for us by the popcorn machine. I asked Sleven to bring a table but there was some sort of breakdown in communication. Dark clouds were building to the North again and threatened to unleash just as the kids were finishing their drinks. The wind raced down the street, throwing sand and trash flying. Grandpa squinted and buried his face in his shirt. “Come inside!” Sleven yelled and squeezed our three chairs into the only free space in the tiny shop. About twenty other people gathered under the awning as the rain assaulted the town. We could hear nothing but the wind and the rhythmic pounding of water on zinc. Half an hour later it finished as quickly as it started and we headed home.
I took Grandpa’s picture in his new ‘choose’ and he asked if he could call Krista and say thank you. All the adults next door rotated through thanking me for Grandpa and I felt like I was finally connecting with them. I staged a second dance party on the dark porch, stopping only when they came and drug all the kids home. I lined up some candles, unrolled my yoga mat and fell asleep on the floor in savasana.
One day down. Four hundred and fifty or so more to go. Who was the guy who kept pushing the boulder up the hill? Prometheus? Yeah, I feel like him.
- Grandpa shows his style with some new “choose”
Go From Here!

Rain is slowly coming back. The pump still dries out every day, but at least I can fill my barrel with rain water sometimes.
I’m still crying every day, but the gaps in between are growing. I miss Krista so much and the four hours of soft rock and smooth R&B we listened to in the taxi did not help. Wanted to punch that radio over and over until it spoiled. Luckily for it, I couldn’t move in my “seat.”
See what you’ve done!
I’m in the car outside Eco Bank and Air Brussels waiting for K to check her bags. Traffic is crazy. I just saw someone drive over a pen-pen driver’s foot. The car stopped right on top. The crowd shouted for him to move. The boy shouted for the driver to get out and see what he’d done. Then the passenger got back on the bike, the driver shook his foot a few times, and everyone drove away. This is not America.
Rather, TIA.
April Fool’s?
K and I leave for Monrovia in about six hours. Oh how I wish it was an April fool’s joke! We got home from the club a little bit ago and I’m half heartedly packing.
This sucks.
It was both a productive and disappointing day. I found the place to put music on my chip then took it to DJ AB at the club to get more. He spent half an hour picking out songs for me… then I got home and found the drive corrupted.
Devastated.
I wanted to make flash drives for U and K and am missing a lot of our favorites. Sometimes you try so hard and Africa happens anyway.
I got some photocopies made for George and Festus (a half hour fiasco) and managed to find George’s house. He wasn’t home but I left my notes with the pape. That was an interesting time in itself. I just wandered into Dahnlorpa and started asking people if they knew where George and Sam Karway lived. I got a lot of blank stares before a young man nodded and carried me there. And good thing! I’m not sure the woman who came to the door could speak English. “Thank you! Thank you for George!” Everyone kept saying. “He has told us about all you’ve done for him.” Without hesitation I replied, “Thank you for George.”
I don’t know where some of these kids came from, perhaps they fell from the sky, but I could not be more grateful for their dedication and motivation. He and Festus are charged with teaching while I’m gone next week. God help them…
- Zed found this in a palm tree. “RB, you wan’ eat? It sweet!” I declined and gave him a Wheat Thins box to raise it in.
- K and Marcy walk to the taxi




































